Saturday, April 10, 2010

Celebrating Emmalee

My Dear Emmalee

Today, baby girl, you would have been two! Two...can you believe it! You would have been such a big girl! Two years ago today I was up even earlier than I am today preparing for and your daddy were so excited to meet you...we headed down to Mayo early to check in....your daddy was so surprised that I wasn't more nervous about experiencing labor...I wasn't nervous 'cause I knew I had to do it so that I could meet you! They started the drugs to induce labor, a few hours later they broke my water, and then at 3:16 p.m. you made your appearance in this world! Luckily the nurse told me to open my eyes when you came out otherwise I would have missed seeing you for the first time...they took you away so fast to try to help you and your precious little heart. As we know, that little heart of yours was kind of a tricky one. Your doctors tried so hard...they really did...I hope I never have to see that look of defeat on someones face ever again. In 13 days we'll also be celebrating the day that you went to be with Jesus...that's an exciting thing to celebrate...while we wish that you were still here with us, we can't think of a better place for you to be. Emma, if you were still here with us, we would probably be starting to prepare for your last be honest...I don't know if your mama could take it. I've heard too many stories about little heart babies that have had such a rough time...yes the do get to stay here with their moms and dads but they have to go through so much, and baby, I think that would be so hard to watch...all the time knowing that I couldn't switch places with you. That would make me so sad. But what I wouldn't do just to have 1 more hour to hold you and cuddle you and tell you how much I love you! But...just as John 3:16 says (and I love the fact that you were born at 3:16!): "For God so love the world that He gave His only begotten Son that whosoever believe in Him shall not perish but have everlasting life." We know that you have everlasting life are not are alive! And you are healed! And we will see you again...and we will hold you again...and we will tell you that we love you again! And until that day we will continue to celebrate you and the life that you had...because made a difference in this world and your story has touched so many people. So baby girl...Happy Birthday! I hope that Heaven has birthday parties...and lots of cake! Have a piece for your mom and dad and sister too! And remind your brothers that you only get 2 birthday spankings and not any more :) We love you Emmalee and will continue to miss you until we are together again!



P.S. Daddy prayed last night (as he does most nights) that God would give you and your brothers a big hug and kiss from us...I hope you liked them :)


Anna said...

Hugs & Prayers to you and Jon today. I hope you have a great day celebrating Emmalee. I can't wait to hear about your day and see pictures. And I think it's pretty cool that Emmalee was born at 3:16 too! I'm sure she's having a great party up in Heaven.


Meghan said...

Thinking of you guys today. Tears flow from my eyes just thinking of all you guys have been through. Your courage, strength and faith are an inspiration. God bless you all.

Melissa said...

What a sweet tribute to your beautiful little girl!

Candie said...

Happy Birthday, Emmalee!! It sure was a beautiful day to be celebrating you. Our thoughts and prayers are with you during these next 13 days as you remember your sweet baby girl.

MJ's Mama said...

Emma definitely touched me in the short time she was here. She taught me to cherish my Madeline that much more. That no matter how hard it gets sometimes with her imperfect health, I still have a perfect girl. Such a beautiful letter you wrote to her, Ali.